Have you ever had that? Where someone says something about you, and it's not the picture you had of yourself, and it makes you question everything about who you are? And thinking back, I can see how they thought of me as bossy. I thought I was being efficient. I was proud of how helpful I was, actually. I'm usually more of a "hang around in the background unless directly asked to do something" person. So his joke was honestly a bit shattering. And my social anxiety is showing, I'll admit. Every negative experience with another human being is 5000% worse in my head than in real life.
Anyway, I have to get up early for the co-op. Like, 5 AM early. This makes me tired. So when I dropped off Lincoln at preschool, I didn't look as carefully as I should have when backing up, and I hit something. For one heart-stopping moment, I thought it might be a child; I couldn't see anything in my rear-view mirror. It turned out a car on the other side, right in my blind spot, was also backing up at the same time. And the woman was so nice, and so sad about her scuffed up car, and I wanted to curl up into a ball and die right there for ruining that woman's day. The woman who said, "Have a blessed day," so sadly as she climbed back in her car.
Then, the least of these things, but still not helpful on a bad day, Fay had a doctor's appointment. The doctor said, "Oh, what beautiful eyes she has!" This is common. Fay does have big, beautiful blue eyes.
ME: No, he has green eyes.
DOCTOR: Where'd she get her eyes from, then?
ME: I have blue eyes.
DOCTOR: Oh! Yes, you do. Hers are so much bluer, though.
So, you know. Just one of those days where your self-image is shattered, you ruin a nice woman's day, and your eyes are apparently very blah blue.
You know that Green Day song, "Wake Me Up When September Ends"? I'm feeling that.